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2016 年 12月 版權所有 All Rights Reserved
The Lord Healed Me From Depression - Ben Ho
My name is Ben Ho. I want to share my personal testimony with you. I was born in Guangzhou, China and immigrated to Hong Kong in 1980. Starting in 1996, I had worshipped Buddha and Ji Gong and committed fasting for 18 years. I believed in karma, liked to learn Feng Shui, assessed physiognomy, practiced purple star astrology, and etc. I was also superstitious, did not want to make enemies with all living beings, and wished to turn all bad luck into good fortune. In 2001, I immigrated to the United States, my occupation was a driver, and my life was peaceful until the car accident on October 2, 2012. I was badly injured: the lumbar bone of my spine protruded, mislocated and narrowed, left clavicle was pressured, both legs were fractured, left knee ligament bursted, and nasal bone was also injured. I had to have surgeries immediately. In the forty days when I was hospitalized, I was nervous and could not sleep. After discharge from the hospital on November 9, 2012, I lived nearby my older sister’s living place. I was depressed, my mood was unstable, and I had suicidal thought. Later I was diagnosed with depression and had to see psychiatrist. I became afraid of seeing people and sunlight, so I blocked all my windows with newspaper in my room.
My older sister and my daughter are Christians, and they really care for me. My daughter introduced a group of Christians to me. I had felt their love, concern, and warmth; I was moved and happy. For nine months, they came to visit me every week without interruption. In the first few months, although they were eager to visit me and often persuaded me to believe in Jesus, I could not accept Him as my personal savior yet because I had sworn to Ji Gong to worship him forever. Then, brother James brought an audio testimony of a Christian in Australia to me. In the testimony, the Christian described how she made similar swear to Buddha, and nothing bad had happened to her after she believed in Lord Jesus. Then, I was relieved and came to believe in Lord Jesus. On July 14, 2014, I accepted Lord Jesus as my personal savior.
I encountered a number of troubles after I believed in the Lord. When the first time I had to take bus to church, I was so nervous that I soiled myself while waiting for the bus. Afterward, I pray everyday, believe this true God Lord Jesus has changed everything for me, and know Lord Jesus is always by my side. Therefore, facing difficulties and worries, I will think about the Lord and become happy again. Now, every morning before I get out of my bed, I will read the prayers from Sweet Daily Living, pray, and sing hymns. I will go to church, pray and sing hymns with brothers and sisters on Sunday. We have a close relationship now. I often think that the Lord is with me, and that makes me particularly happy. In the past, I had hatred to my family because I was abandoned by my family and was upset. Through many church meetings, prayers, and hymns, I learned to let go of the hatred and pray for my family. These two years of abundant life really makes my heart very happy, and my countenance has changed. My brother in law also believed in Lord Jesus after he recognized my changes and happiness. My last visit with the psychiatrist was December 1, 2016. The doctor said I didn’t have to see her anymore because I had been much better; I was not as nervous, and my sleeping hours had become better and improved. I don’t have to worry about Satan’s attacks any more. I have become more optimistic.
God’s love is most real and most reliable, and it can go through trial. To experience God’s love everyday, to live, to see the morning sunlight, and to have the opportunity to share my testimony with you, it is all because of God’s love. Without God’s permission, grace and blessing, I cannot share my testimony with you out of personal courage. Therefore, every time when I share my testimony, I am moved and grateful for God’s blessing and love on me. I wish my testimony can encourage others and help the non-believers quicken their acceptance for Lord Jesus to be their personal savior, and they can rely on Him throughout their lives. Although I do not know my path ahead, by the Lord, I believe He will lead every step of my life.
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